WTF Aqua?

My sister has the CD of the band Aqua. If you dont know them they did they song "Barbie Girl" And i'm actually listining to it right now, the songs are kinda cool, they sound all dream world like, it's raving music, for the candy ravers, lol. Exactly.
I've listened to 5 of the songs..and almost everyone of them reminds me of my char. I miss him so much, espically on days like these, nothing to do for a few hours, but pretend to have something to do. I want to move up there so bad now. But I think that he will have changed his mind. He said that he would think on having me come up there, but since he had mentioned it he wont want it anymore.
Each day i die a little bit more, and each day that cut that was once so small grows and expands. My heart drops further and further in my chest, because it grows so cold at night and even colder in the heat of the day.
I need daddi, and i need it soon.
Please please please please please please please please please please please please... one day i will see you again, and that day is the day i will never leave your side again, and i wont let you leave mine.
Fuck i'm so sad.
So fucking loney,
scared, worried.